I have been feeling pretty guilty this week, i haven’t posted as much as usual, i also have tried to catch some chats on twitter but life just got in the way, the days slip by and suddenly its been 5 days since my last blog post and i haven’t managed to do any of the blog work i intended.
I have been so proud of how my blog and subsequent work has been going lately, and i feel like it has fallen by the wayside, making me feel overwhelmed almost like i have bitten off more than i can chew, i also feel like, in the blogging world, if you take a step back, even for a week, it can really effect traffic to the blog and twitter followers fall off rather quickly, this in itself is so demotivating and frustrating, that is where i am at right now!
The good news is that i know the culprit!!!
Things have been pretty hectic since this little man joined our family over 3 weeks ago now! He is an amazing bundle of fun but i am pretty bad when it comes to keeping routine, my usual times when i blog has now been taken over by watching him, training, cuddles and everything else that comes with having a fluff ball! But it has knocked me for six and i am now struggling to find time to sit down un interupted and write, i miss it, and need it, but i also want to give the pup the best start he can get.
It may sounds strange to some, but changes in routine like this, even when it is change for the better, it can make my anxiety sky rocket! This is the reality of living with mental health issues, it doesn’t have to make sense, it can seem like i am making something out of nothing, feeling generally uneasy when in reality things are fine, feeling physically sick and on edge all the time, i am sure things will settle down, we will develop a new routine, and that will become the norm, but for now, it is unsettling and it is effecting me in so many ways!
I felt like it was important to share this with you, i felt like i owe people who read this blog an explanation..i know non of you would ever expect one from me, you are all too kind as it is, but there it is just the same.