As I spoke about in a recent post, I had a bone scan not so long ago which revealed I have now got Osteoporosis.
Osteoporosis literally translated means ‘porous bone’. Here is an example of what normal bone density looks like in comparison to someone with osteoporosis.
Having Osteoporosis is something I did expect, it has always been something we have been waiting for and something i could do little about in reality. Saying that, it isn’t easy for me to accept now the time has come, especially when you google images like the one above and actually see what it means for your body! (BLUURGGHHHHHHH)
Anyway.. (Shaking off negative feelings)
At the appointment with the bone specialist i was referred to a hormone expert (turns out one who is top of her game in my area, and who i have been trying to get an appointment with for years) she told me I had to be taking HRT, no discussion, no other option. GREAT..NOT!
In fairness this is something i was expecting to hear, all be it with a little more empathy and glimmer of hope for other options. I won’t bore you with my thoughts on HRT now but i have mixed feelings about taking them, I have spoken about this in a separate post.
And on to my current conundrum!
Now, time has totally run away with me, I haven’t picked up the HRT prescription i was given. Mostly because I don’t want to.. and partially because I haven’t had much time! (I could easily have found time if I wanted to though) in reality i have been putting it off.. it is almost like i have been waiting for a magical fairy to bring the hormones to me, and then i would take them, in the event that said magical fairy doesn’t deliver, then i won’t!
Current situation then is that,
A – Magical fairy has not given me any hormones
B – I have no motivation to go and get them just before Christmas, where upon taking them, i could turn into a (more) crazy/anxious/stress head in time for the festivities.
C – Bone Scan appointment next week…
I think they want to see how fast my bones are declining and I guess I should have been taking HRT by now for them to do that, but maybe it would be good to see how fast they are declining anyway and that might sway my decision!
I am in two minds weather I should cancel the appointment, maybe I should, but then again, am I just avoiding my problems?
I am so sorry for the ranty/ moany post today! I hope it hasn’t put you guys off reading my blog too much, but i think it is important to show this side of Menopause and infertility as it can often be forgotten as something that in reality is a serious side effect.
Anyway… thank you for listening, this blog is my outlet, my solace and my safe space, without it, my anxiety would be so much worse than it is!