Is there anyone out there?
I’m hoping so. But equally, if not, I suppose at least I can get my thoughts and feelings down.
It’s always been a therapy for me to write about how I’m feeling. In the past when I’ve been seriously upset about something I have typed away for hours through blurry eyes from crying and with shaking hands that are trying to get everything down that I’m thinking as quickly as possible, then after I feel a little better I have looked back, read what I’ve written and it’s all just a jumbled blur with typos everywhere, no punctuation and a lot of key words in capitals (because obviously you mean things WAY more when you use capitals!!) ha
Anyway, myself and my partner had 4 rounds of ivf, all with different outcomes but ultimately we never had a live birth, this blog isn’t to dredge thought the pain of ivf and what it entails. Looking at blogs myself I’m tired of reading all about the ins and outs of it all, what I want to do is to try and work through life after ivf, what my life means now, and how my life has been effected by my experiences!
I’d love to help people out there understand that while when it’s all happening ivf is EVERYTHING (capitals again) but there comes a point when it isn’t anymore, and that is scary, and exiting, and confusing, and a huge change in lifestyle, but that’s ok. Because like my partner told me only last night, it didn’t define me like I thought it did but it consumed me. (And spat me back out rather brutally) and now it’s time for that to change!
I’d love to share that with you! And hopefully help you guys get through it too!!